Thursday, September 1, 2011

09/01/11 Just Hanging Out

 So, let’s talk about Psalm 139. Pastor Don shared this with the church on Sunday because it is close to him.  Josh was so encouraged, he actually took notes for me! 

J  “Even if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.” I couldn’t sulk if I wanted to – we are not alone.  I also cannot be overcome by this disease.  Neither can Josh, Adam, nor Rachel.  “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”  This experience will make us stronger, closer, and more faithful.  God knew our every step, every act, and every thought before they happened. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “’For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’” He has woven us from the beginning. We are in his hands.  And He will mold, chisel, and lead us.  “Even the darkness will not be dark to you.” Even cancer is not darkness to us.  I will admit that I am glad we have the “good cancer.”  
Adam is watching the Magic School Bus – I am thinking maybe he will learn a little about how his body works.  Mornings are tough because he realizes that he wants to go home and be in daddy’s bed – watching TV and drinking milk like usual.  Milk is the one thing I have noticed he doesn’t like anymore.  Change in taste buds is a side effect of the steroid.  We’ve tried different %s and even chocolate, and still a no-go.  Trying Vanilla soy milk this morning.  

False alarm.  He wants to play here for a couple more days.  As long as I eat a goldfish-raisin sandwich with him.  His own creation!  Yum.  He has been saying he wants to be a chef when he grows up. Now daddy and he are planning to spend the day shooting Nerf pellets at the window.  The doctors were impressed with his aim (and I think wanted a super cool gun like that too)! 

News flash.  We're picking up Adam's meds tomorrow.  Still on track to go home Sat.  Oh for Adam to have a bath and his own bed!  So, I have to admit my shame.  We had to hire a maid to keep the house clean.  Mostly concerned about the dust. With working full time and now weekly clinic visits in our future, cleaning is going to be even more difficult.  I should be excited, right?  Still talking myself into it. 

I have another shot out.  Thank you Ennis' for another yummy dinner!  Adam ate a fair share himself.  He asked, "what is that yummy smell?!"  From a kid on chemo who is easily nauseous from food, this is a HUGE compliment!  Also thank you to Damaris, Arianne, and Sophie for coming after preschool, Great Grandma and Grandma coming with Rachel and Andrew, Papa Brent in between a crazy work schedule, mom’s cousin Lori who works in the incu, the Burkes and the cool Spongebob backpack & accessories, and some pretty cool teenagers.  A brave group of NCS champ baseball players came by with a signed baseball and team pic for Adam.  Adam served as their bat boy a couple times last season and thought he was pretty hot stuff in their dugout.  He was shy today, but was silly and goofy after they left showing that he was pretty happy to have the attention.  Also, my awesome softball girls came with a cars balloon and card signed by players.  Thank you for coming to hang out, even though we had to work it in shifts :)  We love you all very much!!


  1. Praying for your family!! Little Adam seems like one tough cookie. Take care of yourself too!